Until now i just noticed that i'm just like a jerk. Sometimes just thinking which position i should choose? Quite headache when i try to understand this kind of enquiry..

Suddenly just look through some things that i shouldn't see by my own or listen some that i'm not willing to listen.. Every words just like a slice of knife & aim to my heart.. I thought i was able drag out this kind of feeling during that time.. Who knows the emotional make me down & down only.. Damm it..

Oh my gosh.. I just be roll on the bed & keep think about that for whole night.. Why? My brain gonna blow it out soon.. Is that a good time to re-understanding myself & be clear for what i gotta in the next? I'm totally fuck off for this question.. Avoid it.. Hide it.. Ignore it..

Hmm.. I guess i just want publish until this part only.. Good days..