Just finish sms with my friend by midnight. She is just keep on scolding me that why i still so stubborn & keep continue for it since that we know it don't have any pros already. She knew that it will make me nuts on it. She request me to let it down & have a new begin.

Frankly speaking that sometimes i was really lost direction for it & no idea what i should do for the next. Not matter the answer is either yes or no, i really don't know make the choice. You want me be the cold blood person to pretend that i can't see or even think about it anymore. Now i should said i still can't do so but i really will have a try on it since i just feel like i still can't accept those situation from it. May be thats the fact i must accept first or i'm quite stingy for that only. Don't want think too much of it. I really hope each of us can be honest to each other. I'm not a crown which is want to entertain others or let others fool. Lies just will make me hate on it only. I'm seriously to say so...

Shit... later i need to sit my mid-term test. =( Pray for me!