Just finish chat with her & make me feel a bit sad & disappoint on it. I'm not sure that she is really change to become like that or not. But i really surprise & mad after she telling this to me.

I just keep on asking myself how come she be like this? I can tell you by seriously that somethings that looks like cool only & at the end you will regret for what you did before. Why wanna make you become like this? Is it follow friends' style? As your friends & i knew you got view my blog as well. Really hope you don't try this kind of things to hurt yourself & i really dislike about what you done by now! Care yourself more & love yourself too.

Just finish sms with my friend by midnight. She is just keep on scolding me that why i still so stubborn & keep continue for it since that we know it don't have any pros already. She knew that it will make me nuts on it. She request me to let it down & have a new begin.

Frankly speaking that sometimes i was really lost direction for it & no idea what i should do for the next. Not matter the answer is either yes or no, i really don't know make the choice. You want me be the cold blood person to pretend that i can't see or even think about it anymore. Now i should said i still can't do so but i really will have a try on it since i just feel like i still can't accept those situation from it. May be thats the fact i must accept first or i'm quite stingy for that only. Don't want think too much of it. I really hope each of us can be honest to each other. I'm not a crown which is want to entertain others or let others fool. Lies just will make me hate on it only. I'm seriously to say so...

Shit... later i need to sit my mid-term test. =( Pray for me!

Just finish our conversation & we agree with those condition. Nothing much we can discuss more.

Since we are adults and we know what we want to pursuit by now. So we just solve it by peacefully. Since you decide want to do so from that time then what i can do is just respect for your decision. Hope this time what we done is good for us. Leading a way for going back to the right track. Now still remain back to keep on looping for the same method! Oh my god... Really blur for that... Time to sleep.... but the fact i was sleepless.



ع١٥٧ ♥ Sleep ♥ ع١٥٧

Since my friends still stay in UK now. I just request them to help me purchase some jersey over there & bring it back to Malaysia. I love MU jersey since im the loyalty supporter for this red devil team. Haha.... But i also hunt down the latest Liverpool 3rd kit jersey quite nice also. So i decide to grab that 2 jersey which is cost me around 100 pounds. Oh my gosh, i'm really like to waste money since i'm poor as well. Who willing to sponsor me? Just contact me for the donation... Haha!


2009/10 Home jersey for Manchester United


2009/10 3rd Kit for Liverpool

I just feel she is sad after i talking the phone with her at just now. I don't know is either sad or not since we talk through the phone only. My words might a bit harsh but is better than the harassment for me as well. So i decide to follow my friend's advice & just state it out by clearly because i really tired + hopeless on it. Just continue rely on his shadow is enough already. I don't want make any changes for that. Hope you can love more than other for yourself... Take care...

凡事都是讲因缘，缘来就聚，缘去就散。

ع١٥٧ ♥ Yourself ♥ ع١٥٧

First really sorry for late to upload those photo over here... This gathering is held on 27/6/2009 & the venue is House Cafe, Setapak. I just put some to share with you all.

Enjoy...


Lengzai... =)


Ping@2, M3, Tian Hui


Ping@2 & M3


On Pose..


Funny Smile


Leng Lui...


Tarcian Committee Photo


Big Family Photo


ع١٥٧ ♥ Tarcian ♥ ع١٥٧

Now is the Week 8 for my semester & it should be transfer from the honeymoon period to sucks period since the final exam is around the corner. But now i just looks like a bit confusing & unknown for all of my study structures. Is it I'm stupid? So i must figure it out deeply to understand it! Work it hard.... Hope i can achieve for it. Bless for me....

Just feel got something is starting to change after viewing the certain text. Haiz... Finally i noticed that not matter how & it still irreplaceable.

My mates just keep on scolding regarding that issue. If not, i'm the one who will be nuts soon... They just want me keep on be clear in my mind & not infected by it anymore. Oh my gosh... I just realize that i looks like a dumb ass only by now! If i knew that earlier i will choose don't tell on it! Damm... It was embarrassing me by now! But i think will accept it as a fact in this moment. So i decide put it at beside now since i still got a long path to walk along for my future! Thanks for my friends! Mutation for me is begin... Wahaha! I will get my new life again! So what? I able to survive from it! Won't look down myself for any failure! I must love & care myself more than others! Shout it out by together... "I Love Myself!" =)


ع١٥٧ ♥ Myself ♥ ع١٥٧

Just finish a call with my mummy since today is her birthday. Haha! She scold me that i'm late for her birthday wish! Anyways... I love her everyday although sometimes i'm just be rude with her. Happy Birthday... Mummy! =)

ع١٥٧ ♥ Mummy ♥ ع١٥٧

It was really a happy day. Tons of surprise make me nuts. First, Answering the unknown quiz which means that i don't know how to answer. Second just face the fully hopeless issue. Shit just take it as a lesson from that! I guess i'm in the terrible condition already! Damm it... Luckily i got someone beside with me by that time. She try to entertain me but she can't do so! Anyways, thanks for it... =)

P/S: Happy Birthday to Shu Ning & Kam Yu!

ع١٥٧ ♥ Little Girl ♥ ع١٥٧

Well, i guess it should be the right time to refresh my mind which is about her. Message is a good killing technique that you can't imagine. Sometimes make me sad & happy. But sooner I just feel uncomfortable regards for some else. Don't know why i just think more than what i expected as before. Is it you treat that as normal between & i just might be a bit over sensitive on it? Who knows?

I just be sleepless for whole night which is thinking this issue. If i just let it be in natural way & i worry myself that i can't do so. Maybe that was my weakness. =(

Anyways, since it looks like not so deep for each other & i would like to shut it down for this matter by as soon as possible. Wish me have a good future. I WANT STUDY WITHOUT ANY BLOCKING!

Something is happen too fast. I also feel shock for those improvement speed. Oh My Gosh! Is it im addicting on it? I really don't know. How about the 3rd party feel? Now I'm still thinking another way to hold around first! Who willing to lend a hand by pulling me out from this messy condition? But honestly sometime i saw it & feel a bit sadness + disappointing. Really don't know what is the next step. Addicting sign is detected! =(

Long time don't update my bloggy... How are you all? =)

I'm started my uni life already. It is be rush & tired. Tons of issue need to handle by now such as assignment, mid-term, quiz & etc. A lot of new knowledge that i never learn before. So i must work hard for it...

Btw, now i'm is playing fire with certain issue. I might get involved as well. I guess someone know what i'm talking about... =) Can i leave for it by safe? Any hints for that? Just guide for me! =(

Time to stop... Happy always! =)