Today is the last day of Year 2009. Everyone is seems like busy to welcome the Year 2010 coming. Haha.. All willing to drop down the old memories & getting for the new hope. I guess i also will be the same as well. I really not sure what i expected from it at all by previously. I guess now is the time to cut it off for those ambiguous issues already. Maybe you are right, actually I really don't understand on it & what i need, just let the time make it become more clearly. I living in my own world & don't expect myself got any changes on it. I guess it was my self-fish personal excuses only which i wanna run of it. Imagination world are always different from your expected in this real world, so i really don't get any kind of dream about it. Lolx.. Gotta stop on it already.. Cheers..

Happy New Year to every one..

Oh my gosh..

Just over a week for my trimester break..

What i had be done for this whole week?

Hmm..

Let me remind first..

Frankly speaking..

Is nothing..

Just sleep, eat, lepak, going for chit-chat session with friends & etc..

All just seems like super duper useless activities.. Lolx..

We gonna have some invisible gap by now?

Just my comments only..

During this moment..

Do we just looks like a stranger..

I guess it was be the most suitable word for that..

If you read it & please don't blame me that i saying these kind of things..

Just telling what i saw & feel only..

I accept that until to that maximum level..

Trying my best as i can already..

But i still feel that i'm just a clown only..

Is ok..

I will following my style back..

I want to see the truth only..

Don't block at all..

May be we just didn't meet for certain period..

Argh... Nonsense.. Craps..

Keep on routine for it..

Do i be clear at all?

Times up..

奋斗是浪漫的吗？

自从我立定决心上进时，就意味着要改变所有的生活习惯，坚持奋斗对我来说异常痛苦。

我以前看过不少电影，往往讲述主角怎样凭着不断奋斗上进得以反败为胜，重中还有令人振奋的音乐衬托，让人联想到奋斗是一件何等浪漫的一件事，但当我深入其中时，一切都变得如此遥远，站在放弃的边缘，无尽的空虚涌上心头。

有哪个人不希望每件事都顺着自己的意愿，开心地完成每一件事，我们切蛋糕时许的愿也不是心想事成，但我用了不少心力，发觉我们要发奋进步只不过是一连串违背自己思想的行为。

人....是不喜欢被人违背的，何况是自己。

我本身就见过不少成功的人为了改变，让自己长期陷入自己不喜欢的环境里。

现代的年轻人大部分都我行我素，又有谁舍得放弃随心所欲的生活，其实我也不例外。

爱情....当然也会如此，其实长久的爱情不是对方长得多美多英俊，而是双方的解决挫折的能力有多高。

八十年代出世的我们已经被人誉为草莓族了，更年轻的更是比草莓更容易受伤敏感，所以我已经很久没看过正正有体谅的爱情了，往往是从开始的激情发展到非常实际现实的阶段，到那时，付负责的人当然能常相厮守，但浪漫的一族就会简简单单地说一句分手吧，这就是我们每件事都希望没挫折的结果，奋斗的人生更是如此。

其实靠脑袋想出绝计成功和喜欢寻找捷径的人只是一线之差，基本上是没有可能，我看我已避免不到长期的奋斗了，而我已习惯现在的生活了，虽然老土但会不断地进步，你不喜欢像我这样吧！

这篇短文是来自于一个朋友的手笔。。

Just went back at home & finish my shower as well..

Is been 4 something morning by now already..

At first i just went for my friend's house to join his Christmas celebration party..

Just stay awhile over there & have some food only.. After that i still gotta attend the next round with other friends..

I got feel something actually by that time but i prefer make it miserable since nowadays got a lot of reader willing to ask me after read about it..
Haha..

Those reader..

You know i'm talking about who already..

Is you..

I might be not so spontaneous by that session.. even i just feel a bit messy during that time..

May be i'm not ready up & i knew what i should do..

I'm still not drunk yet.. Haha..

Time for sleep.. Merry Christmas to everyone..

Finally i finish my bloody final.. But i still not confidence on my subjects at all.. Haiz.. Just let it be natural.. Now is the time to relax.. Haha..

When i back at home.. The first things that i do is lie on my bed with air-con.. Home sweet home.. Haha..

Got 2 weeks break by now & what i should plan for this period? Lepak at where? Still don't have any idea yet.. Hehe..

I guess i gotta a lot of rubbish wanna clear off by now since is the end of the year already..

Lazy to write already since i wanna take a nap.. See ya..

Aiks.. I can't go back home celebrate this festival & eat the sweet dumplings by this year.. Damm it.. Why? Just because i need to sit the bloody final exam at 23rd.. Overall i still haven't finish study all the chapters & blogging over here by now.. Lolx.. Gonna die soon.. Anyone able to help me? Just simply come over here to shout out only.. Anyways.. Happy Midwinter Festival to you all & enjoy your reunion with your beloved family.. 冬至快乐！

Just finish enjoying the campfire at my secondary school.. Overall performance still acceptable since many years didn't attend this kind of activity already.. This campfire gather up a lot of former back to school & have a crazy night..

First at all, when i going back to school & look around.. A lot of people are changed.. Some of them just be the father already.. Haha.. Looks like i also been old already.. =(

Before that campfire night.. All are stay back for the last preparation.. My buddy been crazy & make the steamboat at school.. Totally nuts with them.. Lolx..

Most happy that we all those same batch can meet up & have some chit-chat session.. After complete the event, we just gossiping & remind back the old funny memories in school that time. Quite good & relax since all are old buddy one.. Really hope can get another one by as soon as possible..

Sleepy already.. Tata..


Main Stage..


Backup Stage..


All looks like tired..


Jia Fei & M3


Stop shooting us la..

看这张纯真的插图，大家有什么感觉呢？作家可是和我同校的哦！他就是朱威龙先生。我只是想放出来和大家一起欣赏而已！

那对情侣真的画得不错。。还有我喜欢那对兔子！



虽然是人比人比死人，但人生很多方面只不过是比较出来的，我看了一个很有趣的文章，原来每个人都是以自己为中心，大部分所谓的以别人为本都变得自欺欺人，怎么说呢？当我们看到石头和花朵时，要你在其中选一样你认为比较重要的，你一定会选花，因为花是和你一样有生命的，而石头是没生命的；然后再将花和狗比较时，虽然花和狗都是有生命的，但你会觉得狗比较接近自己，当中你就会选狗；接着再拿狗和人比较，答案更不用质疑，当然是人；人和朋友比较，答案是朋友；再将朋友和家人比较的话，我们会选家人；家人和伴侣比较的话，大部分人都会选伴侣，当中我们可以体会到原来人是以自己为本。你想象有一天突然发生灾难，你会牺牲自己而成全他或她吗？这幅画讽刺的地方是就算小狗正在破坏美丽的花，但我们还是只觉得小狗的可爱。很多负心的人就是以自己为中心而辜负了伴侣，但大部分在事业上很有成就的人无一不是以自我为中心的，以自我为中心就容易出轨，当中我们又怎样去平衡呢？世界上有在事业上永远不满足而在爱情上一个就够的人吗？当中你又怎样选择呢？大前提是幸福的话，到底我们要跟随有野心或甘于平凡的人呢？大部分野心都是属于自我为中心的而大部分甘于平凡的人才容易从一而终。矛盾...矛盾，就像刺猬和情侣之间拥抱的矛盾那样矛盾。其实.....做什么都随你兴趣吧！

I guess i moody just because not enough sleep for this 2 nights.. Opps.. Is should said didn't sleep for 2 nights at all since it i got 2 papers to sit for this 2 days.. Damm..

Overall i can said goodbye with those papers already.. I study those parts just didn't out at all.. Congra to me to repeat those units..

This saturday night gotta attend the camp fire in my secondary school.. Quite miss those activities.. Meet those junior & fool with them first.. Haha.. Stay tuned..

She already finish up her final & gonna enjoy with her holidays.. But i still got 1 more remaining week to go.. Sob.. Anyways.. Pretty.. Enjoy your holiday la.. =)

I guess time to stop already.. Tata..

I just finish up my first paper in this trimester. Totally no confidence about that paper since i get the wrong info from others. Shit.. I guess it may fail for this subject. Quite worry about it.. I spent my sleeping time to study on it & some of the part that memorize is not coming out on this exam.. Damm it.. Tomorrow i still gotta sit another paper.. Haiz..

Really hope tomorrow's that subject can out about what i know & don't be so tricky for those question..


Lazy to continue on it by now.. Bye..

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让她拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。 苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”
你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对她怎么好
她都不领情
她不是看不到
她只是装作看不到
或者她根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢她
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢她
你用尽全力对她好
把她看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到她
联系不到她的时候你担心她担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能她是在躲着你
她受不了你对她那么好
不要一直发短信给她
不要一直找她
你也许只是想找她说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许她并不这么想
记住你的想法不代表她的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢她吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用她回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱她是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为她付出
有时候你给她的爱或许是种负担
这种负担只会让她更加想远离你
因为她不想亏欠你
别事事为她担心为她张罗
你觉得她没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是她要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
喜欢她不是你的错
想关心她不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式
人家不一定就能接受你这种所谓无私的爱
所以如果你喜欢她她不喜欢你
那么就请你默默的
别试图让她知道
就算你会难过甚至难过的流泪
就请你默默的
就算是逼自己也好
一定要忍着

傻孩子．
忘了吧．
所有你留恋的．
你回忆的．
你拥有过的．
那些．
都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．
是无法面对．

傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．
是因为你付出过．
付出了．
她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．
刻意忘记．
那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．
寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．
有你的理想．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．
每天一个人生活．
习惯．
一个人过生日．
一个人行走．
习惯．
走过熟悉的路．
面对熟悉的景．
你逃不掉．
逃不掉的．
那么．
就勇敢面对．
现实．
现实是．
一切．
画上了句点．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．
成长中的你．
这个你．
正在逐渐死去．
新的你．
即将重生．
找寻你的路．
你的未来．
你知道的．
所有的浩劫．
都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．
即使．
一个人．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．
用文字．
用声音．
用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．
就要振作．
看吧．
你失去的．
其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．
以不同的方式．
所以．
你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．
让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．
别再哭．
不值得．
真的．
不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．
别委屈．
别不甘心．
别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．
去遇见新的风景．
新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．
有很多事．
等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．
暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．
那会毁掉你．
你要明白．
虽然残忍．
但这个决定．
足够正确．
现在的生活．
不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．
你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．
就是．
变的更好．
更强大．
更幸福．
现在我对你很好、很好、很好，
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了。。。
因为那时的我，已经将你放下。。。。

Just read this post from other.. Quite meaningful.. So just share it..

Seems like i already stop for blogging around 2 weeks time.. How are you all? Firstly, i would like to apologize on it because i really busy for my mid-term test & assignment as well.. But i just feel a bit sad since not so much people visiting over here already.. Sob..

In pass 2 weeks I just a bit rushing on my academic stuff.. I knew i must gone through that at all.. No CHOICE.. Don't worry for that i will be nuts since i still have time for my photo snapping.. I got pay attention to study the camera's user guide at all.. Haha..

I still got time to lepak for trying American's food.. Looks yummy..

We have the wonderful conversation for last few days.. I really get the means from it & appreciate from that.. Thanks for it..

Next week i gonna sit for my bloody final already.. Is the time to work hard.. Gambateh for all candidates..


Looks good? It cost around RM 40.. =.="


Time for "makan"..